~Huishan's Farewell Party 29/6/2008~


it's over... 25 months of teaching in Japan, the dream that i had worked so hard for, and also my farewell party, the big event that i had been looking forward to. however, everything seems to have ended a tad too simply. maybe that's why i feel so sad. guess i had been expecting too much.

a total of 34 students came to my party... and of cos there were also boss, my co-worker jess, the next teacher, my housemate and master. boss, jess and 2 of our students even set up a temp band and played 2 songs at my party. then came the speech time. i had spent the previous 3 days brainstorming what to say, but still couldn't make up a coherent speech until the very morning itself. (a big thanks to my dear housemate, who spent hours with mi translating my speech into Japanese.) and so i spoke... in front of almost 40 people... teared a bit at certain parts, but also laughed at the humourous bits. with that, everything just ended. managed to get a group pic b4 everyone rushed back to their respective lives. not many people joined the karaoke session afterwards. quite a bit of leftover food too.

then came monday... had my last class and cleared out my desk. noriko-san said "お疲れ様です" to mi and boss saw mi off. the moment i took off in my bike, tears were brimming in my eyes. it's really over... i kept telling myself.

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right after the ending of 1 chapter in my life, i have to face many problems. i am now sleeping in the living room of the apartment, with all my stuff chunking up every available space. can't possibly stay here for too long... i know. and how am i going to carry all these things back home?? *hiaks* of cos there's problems with $$ too. yet, i've already planned out my rough schedule in Japan all the way until my return on 16th Aug. really wonder if i can hang on till so long... cos inside mi, i really wanna go home asap!!

how??? should i forsake all the things i wanna do and go home earlier, or hang on till i've finished them??? is it worth it???