i am back in Japan now, with my sore throat back again after the torturous night flight. and my runny nose is still here. damn~ juz how long will it take for mi to fully recover from this chronic illness?

the 1-week in Singapore was so so so so BUSY! i met up with different ppl, went different places and ate different food every day. managed to do all the things i wanted to do, saw everyone i wanted to see, and went all the places i wanted to go. i guess it was quite a fruitful trip... but still.... i can't help regreting going back. *sigh*

one reason is of cos the super exp air tix which i could hv well spent on a domestic tour in Japan to somewhere i hv yet to venture. another reason is tt i shld hv rested more and let my flu recover completely. but the main reason is tt despite all the money and effort i spent for this trip... it onli served to make mi feel so... disillusioned.

back in Singapore, i realised tt i was always sub-consciously making comparisons between Singapore and Japan, and i would always prefer the latter, be it things like culture, people or weather. maybe i'm juz too used to everything in Japan? i was actually looking forward to flying back to Japan. i actually disliked being in Singapore!

i really feel so lost now. when my plane took off from Changi, i was crying. i felt very sad abt myself feeling out of place in my own country. i seriously dunno where i belong now. in Singapore, i hate my lifestyle. but in Japan, i am forever juz a foreigner. juz where do i go from here???

i need to find a direction.